Hageshii!!! Gekiretsu!!!!

I could never have thought that dreams could suddenly fade like s*** all of a sudden. I'm furious about it...but I'll never get it...I will never get it at all.... sometimes you just need to fail to expect these things...that expectation is not a good thing to do when you're not even sure....OMG I'm so mad...I mean who wouldn't be... the project suddenly collapsed....and here I am... lying in the ruins.....

ang yummy ko dito no?

Back to the topic: How about the handshakes? How about the congratulatory words they all said.... I even told my folks about it.....somebody left me hangin....like the cake out in the rain....yeah like the song.... I kinda got it already...before things like these were told to me.....right in my face...

Sometimes things are really not meant to be....all the things that you may probably have learned about people and how it should work....and the way it turned out afterwards....this is really bad.... how I wish I could just pig out.... leave this corp for a few years then just go back when I'm feeling better.....Go right ahead and check if you are really hired... coz if you are not...then don't expect too much...why the hell do I feel stupid.....why the hell do I feel furious.....

I'm beginning to hate myself...this corp....and everything else that's in it....I think it would be better to look for a new job....things did not turn out the way I liked it to be.... somebody failed....and I'm glad that it's me....
But I'd have to make sure the job pays well...I plan to do this soon....somebody out there might appreciate me more...