PLANS HUH?!

Well what do you know...I was able to do somethings in photoshop...well it looks weird but this is fine I guess if its just an attempt....hahah...Well now, I have been looking for things to learn...and I could probably be better at this if I only put my mind into it...well of cours putting this on my blog also..aheheh...

I would like to be:
1. CCNA CCNP LINUX Ubuntu Certified before the year ends
2. Be more stable as far as what I'm earning is concerned....coz Im really greedy and Im also a shopaholic
3. Be more goodloking...well I am already but of course it would be nice that I can experiment more with clothing and all : )
I am also worried coz they will be transferring us to the domain Internet connection...wondering if this would ever be accessible again or not...hopefully I would be able to still access this...coz otherwise I will be pissed...really pissed...
I mean Im a good boy...I do my work....I barely even have time to blog....geeze... Whoa! sudeenly there's fireworks outside....
I better go out a bit...well I am already going out with online friends...and my hunny of course...its a lil expensive but I think I can manage....though right now...Im a little worried about my career...where am I going from doing all of these things?...I think I just did something wrong but I dont have any control over where I'm gonna be... Hopefully I will be able to do this all before the year ends....Im too worried to even think about it...but Im excited that I'll be goin out again...hehe time to touch some booties!!! Heheh...

GHOST!!!!

I now am a believer...that ghosts really exist...sad but true...

I got a fright a few sleeps ago...it wasn't that rad at all... though the nightmares evidently became more vivid...and then there it was.... a real GHOST as so I may say...

The first time I had a nightmare of this sort, I got off from office...I had enough sleep of course, and I was not tired...I arrived at home around 430 am early morning...when i went to bed... around 5am I had a nightmare....though I vaguely remembered the dream, when I woke up from it....the next one actually is the one that puzzled me...someone was holding my head and messing up my hair.... I also heard a deep and fast murmuring of "Llalalalallalalah..."; and I heard that for about 10-15 seconds....when I opened my eyes... red eyes were looking straight at me as his arms were extending to hold my head and just messing up my hair...it was red... i cant see his face but I could really see his eyes...faint but really lighting up like flames... then it swooshed away... to the door... and vanished in the dark....that was just the first time... so I thought..."I'm just tired"..."That's not true! Ghosts do not exist..."
and so I thought...

I told everyone in the house about it...so that if it were really true...if I died of a heart attack then they would really know why...I would not really want to be the next Rico Yan...he's a far relative by the way...We went to his funeral... but that's a different story....A few months came and I just slept since it was my day off and I just felt lazy and slept... I was sleeping in a matress...that's on the floor...my sister was in another bed... just a few feet apart...she was texting someone...but she was looking back at that time... and I could see the light from her cellphone from where I was... but then....there was this sound again...."Llalalalallalalah..."; and when I fully opened up my eyes...I froze looking at it for about 10 seconds....I couldnt speak...I couldnt move... But I can see... It looked like that guy in the picture above.... but with the fiery eyes that I remembered previously though...it was really like looking at red...fire... now he looks like a combination of a zombie and a ghost....half of his body was floating...right through me!!!!!.......He was holding my head with one hand...he was trying to reach also with his other one....I mustered all my strength and tried to shout at my sister while this was happening... I was frightened he was trying to hold my head with the other hand...I don't know why....then I was able to say something...he was then like trying to frighten me....no! Scare me!...but then the only words that I was able to say is... "Oh!Eh ano ngayon?!!" Like I was trying to let him know I wasn't afraid...even if I was.... That was the time I froze again... but then my sister heard it.... she was able to laugh about it at that time not knowing the ordeal I was going through.... That ghost swooshed again and went through the wall..... Disappeared...I was panting hard... then my sister looked back once... then she looked at me again... she noticed I was staring at the wall with fear in my face... goosebumps... I was able to talk to her after that... she said she thought I was already awake coz she can hear me scratching my head/hair at that time... when all along somebody else was... something else was... That was really the time I believed in ghosts.... Now I know they really exist... ( : O ) I'm just telling you so you won't assume things that I did...

Success or not? Maybe...or maybe not!

Its really hard...really hard to keep up with my blog... I've been out of this pile for about 2 months already so I'm kinda rusted... "Wala nang kwenta"....Hahah....
The position I applied for is already mine! So that's that..I should be happy right??? But why am I still unsatisfied? Do I see no future over this ordeal?....What's really weird to understand is that my position seems high already...though if you think about it....Im still not satisfied...Maybe it's the salary?....Maybe it's the people I work with.... Maybe it's the company that I work for....Rubbish to say though some parts of it seem true... I am now waiting if the fruits of my labor would materialize...
I hope they give me a raise... I hope they give me perks...I hope I work less and get paid more...I hope I get somewhere better... I hope I get to move on this feeling of unsatisfactionness... that's if there is such a word....

Weird world....
I hate my hair by the way... Id probably get that straightened out... So I can look good sometimes.... Geeze...when will I be staisfied.... :'( I'll try to tell you somethin about my trip on my next blog post...coz Im not satisfied also about what Im gonna tell you also... Ironic...wuwuwu!

JOY !!!

Geeze... I've been looking for this song for a very long time... I saw this first on Animax but I did not know Yuki also sang it... I did not know her then...but it's a good thing I saw it on youtube...


JOY by YUKI

Itsumo kuchi karade makase bakkari shabetteru
IESU, NOO
Dochira demo nai koto mo aru deshou
Itsudatte sekai wa watashi wo tanoshiku sasete
Itsuka ugoka nakunaru toki made asonde ne
Shakushaku yoyuu de kurashitai
Yakusoku datte mamori tai
Dareka wo aisu koto nante
Hontou wa totemo kantan da

Zuibun tooku made nagare nagarete setsunain desu
Taisetsu na omoida sae wasurete yuki sou desu

*Tashikana kimi ni ai tai
Hyakunen saki mo soba ni itai
Donna ni hanare hanare demo
Futari wo tsunagu jumon wa J.O.Y

Kashi no ki ga yureru hi wa,
Sugu ni omoidashite ne. Watashi wo.

Itsumo kuchi karade makase bakkari shabetteru
Unmei wa hitsuzen janaku guuzen de dekiteru
Itsumade tatte mo wakan nai
Yakusoku datte yaburi tai
Dareka wo aisu koto nante
Tokidoki totemo konnan da

*Repeat

**Shinu made dokidoki shitai wa
Shinu made wakuwaku shitai wa

**Repeat