REGRET

By New Order

Maybe Ive forgotten the name and the address
Of everyone Ive ever known
Its nothing I regret
Save it for another day
Its the school exam and the kids have run away

I would like a place I could call my own
Have a conversation on the telephone
Wake up every day that would be a start
I would not complain of my wounded heart

I was upset you see
Almost all the time
You used to be a stranger
Now you are mine

I wouldnt even trust you
Ive not got much to give
Were dealing in the limits
And we dont know who with
You may think that Im out of hand
That Im naive, Ill understand
On this occasion, its not true
Look at me, Im not you

I would like a place I could call my own
Have a conversation on the telephone
Wake up every day that would be a start
I would not complain of my wounded heart

I was a short fuse
Burning all the time
You were a complete stranger
Now you are mine

I would like a place I could call my own
Have a conversation on the telephone
Wake up every day that would be a start
I would not complain about my wounded heart

Just wait till tomorrow
I guess thats what they all say
Just before they fall apart

Move ON!!

A MAD WORLD...indeed....

I don't like it... I really don't like what I'm feeling right now... I am still mad.... now I know who the culprit is..and how the story went... I'm sure he's up for a challenge.... I'd like to stay unclear like this so you wouldn't know who I'm referring to...yeah that's the way it's gonna be now... Since I'm probably on the edge...of thinking what to say to everybody else.... I was severely humiliated to tell my folks....and so will I be once I tell my brother in Ireland... I wonder what he would say about this....most probably, its gonna be "I TOLD YOU SO!".... Was I a hapless soul to expect? Was I wrong? Am I a victim of this situation?.... I don't just sit around and do nothing...On a normal occasion I should have resigned....coz it's the right thing to do in this situation...how could I just be left hanging like that?
I mean if it happened to other people, they couldv'e turned all the tables and flipped cars by now...I trust my mentor... that's why I'm staying... and I have friends here.....but if the workplace sucks bigtime!, am I gonna stay? or should I go..... My Ireland application is just around...if I pursued that... then that would be a deciding factor... I wouldn't wanna stay with this corp if it continues the culture of POLITICS... I hate it when you know you are on the right side of things, but you could never do anything coz somebody stops you for their own abrupt decisions! Dammit! I hate him!.....He has inflicted blood....I will do this in return... nobody knows how I'll be doing that... nor do I know how I'll be doing it...but let's just wait and see.... I hope they do something about it....I'm tired... I will be throwing the towel if it turns out bad again.... I'm waiting for the right time to do these....sometimes I hate myself....I'm so introvert.... I cant get mad.... why the hell am I ranting on my blog!

I'm MAD AT THIS SITUATION! MAD AT THIS GUY! AND JUST MAD! PLAIN MAD! ANGRY AND FURIOUS! DAMMIT! I AM IN THE EDGE OF BEING COMPLETELY DEMORALIZED!!!! GRRRRRR...............!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hageshii!!! Gekiretsu!!!!

I could never have thought that dreams could suddenly fade like s*** all of a sudden. I'm furious about it...but I'll never get it...I will never get it at all.... sometimes you just need to fail to expect these things...that expectation is not a good thing to do when you're not even sure....OMG I'm so mad...I mean who wouldn't be... the project suddenly collapsed....and here I am... lying in the ruins.....

ang yummy ko dito no?

Back to the topic: How about the handshakes? How about the congratulatory words they all said.... I even told my folks about it.....somebody left me hangin....like the cake out in the rain....yeah like the song.... I kinda got it already...before things like these were told to me.....right in my face...

Sometimes things are really not meant to be....all the things that you may probably have learned about people and how it should work....and the way it turned out afterwards....this is really bad.... how I wish I could just pig out.... leave this corp for a few years then just go back when I'm feeling better.....Go right ahead and check if you are really hired... coz if you are not...then don't expect too much...why the hell do I feel stupid.....why the hell do I feel furious.....

I'm beginning to hate myself...this corp....and everything else that's in it....I think it would be better to look for a new job....things did not turn out the way I liked it to be.... somebody failed....and I'm glad that it's me....
But I'd have to make sure the job pays well...I plan to do this soon....somebody out there might appreciate me more...

USA Here I Come!

Just got in...I think I will be travel'in to the US next month! woohoo!!!!! I hope everything will be great after this decision I made.....Whoopie!!!!! My career advancement is my priority....I hope this project will push through and make a mark on my story!!!! Whoohoooo!!!!! I'll tell you the story when everythin's final!! Whoopiedo!!!!